I can't believe it's nearing the end of August! Of course, I've been busy, making up for the things that I wasn't able to do last year, but regardless, this summer sure is flying by! Now don't get me wrong though, I've loved every second of it! Pauses to catch my breath though sure have been necessary ;)
In May, I celebrated my 50th birthday. My husband had a surprise party for me with family and friends. Yes, he got me good ;) Members of my Wholly Fit bootcamp family also spoiled me, along with co-workers and other special people in my life. I was touched by those who remembered :) I received some beautiful bouquets of flowers too - one was from my auntie and uncle that I've told you about in previous newsletters. It's the first birthday greeting I've received - in a long time - from my biological father's side of the family. It was significant and I was honored :) The blossoms have started to bud and I am both thankful and fortunate :)
The idea of giving myself a 50th birthday gift reached fruition too as I did what I said I would and stayed at a wolf sanctuary. This was in Bozeman, Montana. What a magical and rewarding experience. You'll read more below in my "Something I've Discovered" section. Meeting and spending time with the resident wolves was ethereal. I am transformed. I strongly encourage anyone who feels the longing to go and be at one with these sentient creatures, to just go and do it :) Their gift is so indescribable. The love I felt in my heart was instant for these magnificent souls and was beyond what I imagined. Their unconditional love towards me both captivated and devoured vacant parts of my soul I didn't even know were empty.
Another thing I did for my 50th birthday was celebrate it with my twin in June; surfing in Tofino, on the island I live on. It was awesome! We supported the only family run surf business in Tofino, Live to Surf. The instructors were top notch and did an terrific job to ensure that a fantastic time was had by all. I even got up on my board and impressed myself! My son was a natural, much to my delight and of course stood up often. As a mom there is nothing better than seeing the smiles on your baby's face when they are in nature and not hooked up to any electronic devices! My brother, a more experienced surfer, had no problem either riding the waves, and my husband discovered that there is nothing like being on the ocean doing your best to hang five, or ten.
The instructor forgot our camera, so we only got a few pictures of riding the waves. Below are a few they captured:
I also managed to slip time in to take my son and husband on a zip lining tour before surfing. This was in Ucluelet,at WestCoast Wild Adventures. To witness the spectacular and untouched forest often left me breathless. I was exhilarated as I zipped through the "canopy of an old growth rain forest then thread through the wild Kennedy River Canyon." I love the feeling of flying and also the freedom in my heart that encompasses me when I am in nature. We were revered with the gift of friendship that was bestowed upon us so readily by the group that led us. It may have been my son's first experience doing a "big boy" zip line, but he assured me it would not be his last. I look forward to many more adventures like these with him and my husband.
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POEM OF THE MONTH
Moments spent between us
A long time ago
Yet despite that
My thoughts still linger
On your retreat
That day you walked away
Is etched deep into the crevices of my heart
Like a needle
On an old record player
After the last song has ended
It continues to spin
Try to temper
The inevitable threat of rainfall and clouds
Reflect the colors and thoughts in my mind
A rainbow of light
Yet despite their attempts
More often than not
Memories tumble, inward
To try to paralyze me
I wish it would all just fade away
Disappear into a veil of white
And that I could
Learn the process
To walk away
I miss you
Searching for light
That I know I will never find
I prepare myself
My feelings awashed
As my heart breaks once more
Well I did it! I added extensions to my eyelashes. Now for you, this might not be a big deal, but for me this is epic!
People my age are all about boob jobs, implants, fillers, whiting their teeth and Botox. The tomboy in me just got lashes done and all I can think is, "I hope I don't look ridiculous!" My older brother has already started to tease me ;)
I know that I am lucky that I am aging well, but I decided I might as well try something as everyone else seems to be doing little fixes and I'm only realizing that. I thought all these smooth, wrinkle free faces with well shaped figures around me were just good genetics ;) Look who was wrong!
Do you do things that make you look at yourself in the mirror and think "yeah baby" or do you look in the mirror and hate yourself? It's something to think about. Remember a mirror is nothing more than a distorted picture of yourself. You may think you look that way to the outside world, but your own head colors in things - many times in a negative, untrue way. If you want to see how you're seen, a more honest approach is to capture yourself in video form. It's not just your face and body that people see, but your actions too; the way you express yourself - your essence. You'd be surprised at what you actually might see. I know whenever I see myself in a picture I think, yuck!, only to see it a few weeks later and think, "Hey maybe I don't look that bad."
One Life Only
The shift I was talking about in my last newsletter, I continue to move through. At times it is still painful; I feel lost and uncomfortable, but I feel a little more sense of peace now too - which is new. I am growing and moving forward. As long as I continue to do this, I am happy.
My physical house is still moving at a slow pace to shape up, but I am comforted knowing this shift is going to take time. This is a big one. This is regaining my sanctuary; my spot of acceptance, unconditional love and peace. Both on the inside and the outside.
Right now my "emotional inner self" has a stronger pull on me than my "outside" and that's okay. I am respecting the process. I want things to work through me in an effective and productive manner, instead of in one of self destruction.
I have been standing back and looking at relationships too in my life and facing how important I am or may not even be to many people. I have had some people unexpectedly reach out, where others I am cognizant continue to place themselves further away from me. I understand that there has been a lot of projection on me by people not satisfied with their own lives, and I've had to take long and deep breaths and metaphorically hold my hand up and say, "Stop, I've had enough". I'm reminded too of the saying that I was taught long ago: "People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime." Hitting this stage of my life, I realize even more how true this statement is. People from my past pop up some days and it's like no time has passed. We still relate to each other and I love that - to me a description of a true friend (no drama just fun!). On the other hand, others I might see often I don't even feel I know very well anymore. I've also made some new friends over the past few years and realize that they too are not "season" people but may be in it for the long haul and this is kind of a cool, liberating in fact.
How has your life been affected by people? Do you let the past be the past or do you allow people from long ago to reach back for you with open arms - despite maybe them hurting you (do you give them the time to work things out, so you can move forward)? Remember, we are given but one life to live. We never know when the time will end for us. Are you living your life as incredible and authentic as you can? I know this is my goal :) It can be hard, don't get me wrong, I understand the kinks and twist and curves we all face. Yet, when I am on my deathbed, I want to be able to say to myself that I have arrived and that my life was lived nothing but to its fullest - in fact this is the line I put in my annual when I graduated over thirty years ago! Interesting how relevant it is today too! I guess I should just say it's now my mantra!
If you wanna share your thoughts, shoot me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org. I'd love to hear them and what you're up to! This tomboy has a lot to learn! I've learned a lot in the past little while about how people are tweaking themselves in other ways other than a good old fashioned workout. What do you do? What would you never do? No one really shares their secrets, but I'm being bold and asking!
MY FITNESS CORNER
Time to Jump Start What I've Already Started
Well my fitness life lately has been one of great highs and great self defeating lows. I'd love to say that I've been doing great, but if I were honest, I haven't been on the greatest of paths.
I tested my ankle and successfully completed the five kilometer portion of the Oak Bay Relay here in Victoria. I was high on the realization that I could run again. Then I entered a very sticky part of life's journey, I'm a little nervous to be so raw, but here goes:
I have increasingly had trouble sleeping this past year. My doctor thought it would be great to put me on an anti-depressant to balance this out and help tme o unwind. Well it didn't work. Many years ago they tried anti-depressants on me and they didn't work either. I should have known better. So, like any medication not working I did the appropriate time line and just stopped them. I thought that was it. Then the unexpected happened. I gained over 10 pounds - yes I can handle that - and all of a sudden my clothes didn't fit right, my tummy got all messed up and I started sleeping even worse. I read up on my particular type of anti-depressants and low and behold buried in the internet was the revelatation that the type of medication I was on, after you quit, messes with your metabolism and hormones and you are left feeling not yourself. Oh yay :( It has been kind of awful honestly. My self worth has taken a hit - thank god I'm married and my husband assures me that I'm okay! These past few months, I have worked out only to get no results and after about four months this has become very self-defeating. My heart is getting involved now too. We all know that that is never a good recipe. I am trying to hold my head up high, but I tend to retreat.
So how is my boot camp going? Well pretty bad, I'm embarrassed to say. I still am working out. I am up to sixty minutes rowing, but I don't want to be a "Debbie Downer," so I find myself pulling away.
I know that this will change, I'm determined it will, but right now I just want to share with my readers that we all have set backs, we all go through times of uncertainty in all aspects of life. I want to let you know I will be okay. I want to let you know that if you too are facing something you too will overcome. Man it sucks though in the moment, I keep trying to hold my head up and will continue. I know I will get bored of rowing and working out alone, it's not my makeup. I understand like all things worth having, I have to put time into myself and reflect. Or, as my husband and I call it, I have to pouch. That means sitting in our king chair, with his arms around me, with a nice cup of tea and watching a good movie.
On a positive note, I did return to my first mudder, Battlefrog, and succeeded at making it across the finish line. It was a hoot and probably one of my favorite mudders to date in fact. Training for this and accomplishing it helped me to get my ankle moving more like the way it did before. It has been one year since I broke the two bones and dislocated it. All the little muscles are beginning to fire, which can be a bit sore, with each new thing I begin to do again, but so worth it. I am blessed to not have a condition that threatens me to continue to do what I love best - working out. There is an ache at times; I don't let let stop me. Running is not as hard as I thought it would be, but I feel different pangs as I work harder and harder on getting my strength back.
As always, I'm fortunate to have my trainer, Jenn, at Wholly Fit, to help me through this. She has a large clientele, but still manages to make small moments for me, which I appreciate. My Wholly Fit family is still important and I miss them very much when I am not with them - this is happening more than I like and I find myself fading into the background. I am hopeful that in the next few months I will change that and be a more prominent fixture in the "family" unit.
What About You?
How are you doing? I'd love to hear your thoughts. How are your work outs going? Have you been inspired lately to start doing them if you haven't started yet? Drop me an email email@example.com, anytime!
2 cups kale
2 cups broccoli florets
2 cups brussels sprouts, roughly chopped
2 cups red cabbage, roughly chopped
1 cup carrots, roughly chopped
½ cup fresh parsley
½ cup almonds
1 to 2 Tbsp sunflower seed
For the dressing:
3 Tbsp olive oil ½ cup lemon juice (or juice of two lemons) 1 Tbsp fresh ginger, peeled and grated 3 tsp. Dijon mustard 2 tsp. honey (or maple syrup) ¼ tsp. sea salt
Using a food processor, process all the veggies up to the parsley until finely chopped and mix together in a large bowl. This may take a few batches.
Add almonds to the food processor and pulse, until roughly chopped, and mix in with the salad along with the sunflower seeds.
In a small bowl, whisk together all the ingredients for the dressing and drizzle over top of the salad OR place in a jar and use as needed. Enjoy!NUTRITIONAL
Serving Size: 1½ cups • Calories: 175 • Fat: 11.8 g • Saturated Fat: 1.6 g • Carbs: 15.4 g • Fiber: 4.7 g • Protein: 5.3 g • Sugar: 5.6 g • WW Points+: 5 • Smart Points: 6
Are you looking for a boot camp to "be the best version of yourself" and live in Victoria, BC? If so, check out Wholly Fit'swebsite at http://whollyfitvictoria.com/ and sign up to join us.
SOMETHING I'VE DISCOVERED
Last newsletter, I shared with you a link regarding my amazing Reiki and yoga teacher, Jen Craig-Evans. If you have not had the chance yet to check out her website, please do! You can click here for her website, or her contact information is as follows:
Telephone Number: 250-979-8582
Jenn is an radiant soul full of amazing talent and insight. She will work with you to help you transform your inner self and connect you to being the person you've always longed to be - for me that's centered and living my life authentic; full of passion.
What's New This Newsletter
This newsletter I want to share with you isHowlers InninBozeman, Montana. The gift I gave myself was a stay there and something I did not regret. To be so close to wolves and receive kisses from them, was beyond satisfaction. It lifted me! It was one of those, "best decisions of my life". There were five of these beautiful souls there - my favorite, Comanche, who I gave and received love (and kisses from) from daily, Sekani who also received love and surprised me with a getting kiss from! and the brothers Chinook and Tahoe (the alpha) and of course a highlight, 5 week old wolf cub, Shasta.
What an honor to play with a baby wolf! My son fell in love and it was awesome to see them playing. He has his dogs and he loves puppy play! I've put pictures of everybody at Howler's Inn below and strongly encourage you, as I said above,
to go and see them.
Bozeman Montana was worth the drive! We even got to go to a grizzly sanctuary which is just down the road and saw in person Brutus the bear (who is featured on National Geographic) as well as his friends. If you've got any money you wish to donate to great causes, I recommend both of these without second thought!
I'm excited to fly back today to the place that I was born in 1966. I have not visited there in 43 years. I left when I was five, then returned for the summer when I was seven after my parents' divorce. I have no memories of that time, except for a few sporadic random images. I will be staying with my auntie and uncle on my biological father's side and seeing my other uncle (my mom's brother) and aunt, as well as cousins - some I haven't seen in ages or haven't even met. I'm looking forward to it and will share next time about my Flin Flon, Manitoba adventure! Stay tuned!
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